Memory Lane

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no longer the girl 
who dulls down in your absence
never will she ever 
cry herself to sleep again

no longer the one
who looks out for you
at every turn 
at every trough 

stop mouthing your name 
each time she meets your friends 
end the thought of you
as soon as something reminds her of you 

took her ages to get over 
to be happy again 
to tuck away her pain
to smile ahead and move on 

then you come prancing 
into her life again
breaking down those walls
with a simple knock

and OF COURSE she lets you in
without a doubt 
without a thought
this time, she hoped 

she built herself 
to be someone she’s proud of  
grew out of her old ways  
into someone she knew you’d love 

smiles exchanged
hands held
shoulders heavy 
you let her in too 

like the rain pours 
on a bright sun shiny day
you step out and realise
your heart lies with another

and yet again
she’s let down
scorned by your words
torn by your distance 

a night full of tears 
and she decides 
goodbye 

i’m letting you go 

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