Temporary Bliss

green bomber jacket you make your way  through the crowd wide smile plastered  on your well chiseled face  it's like in the movies where music plays in the background you hair suddenly  coordinating well with the wind  which didn't exist a minute ago you walk towards her  eyes widening she's screaming  within her suddenly narrow throat  she smiles too, the day's getting better  then you nod at her  and walk past her  into the arms of another she donned pink and held your heart  in her tiny little hands oh the things you do

fight the feeling to be filled with rage  with the colour red  doors slamming dead of the night haunted by an  eerie presence walk a little closer  find yourself  looking into the mirror claws creeping up the ghastly sight  of what you stand for  finally evident  to the eyes staring at your image

something so deep and dark  i can't point my finger to what lingers  when you cross my mind i haven't had you up there or down here you hadn't been worthy of my thoughts  it had seemed like forever ago yet you still  plunge your way  into our lives you're like a bad dream the sour soup the dullest shade black, disappointment hope, we filled you  honey we tried  i tried to make you see so many feelings i can't tell what it is it's everything at once i hate you for it  i'm only 20 you ruined my life you messed us up you're a mess yourself  waltzing in  grin on your face  "look at my beautiful life" "they make me happier"  i couldn't ever see  a future with you in it now it's certain you confirmed it