the end

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 i'm tired now 

crouching in a corner 

knees in my hands 

swollen eyes i can't see 


i'm done 

putting up this facade

of who you think i am

i can't pretend anymore 


i've had enough 

living for you 

for all of you 

mental exhaustion 


i don't have a person 

not anymore 

i'm tired 

i'm done 


it breaks me each time

i no longer have enough

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