21

 here is a vow to myself 

as i sit here staring at the pale moon 

eyes as sunken as ever 

hurting as always 

i promise to never 

let myself get hurt by another 

and to never put myself 

after the ones who don't bother 

to put my happiness and needs first 

because i deserve all of the above 

i gotta learn to focus on what matters 

to make it big, without a shoulder 

this time, it won't come as a shock

i would expect for the outcome 

and i'd know better 

it wouldn't hurt as much 

but i'll stay on my path 

putting myself first. 

prioritising myself. 

i will not fake my happiness to make you happy 

that's the thing about caring too much 

you push it all out 

until you have no more 

nothing 

this time tho, i'm giving it all to me